Wednesday, February 25, 2015

Breast feeding after reduction

Breast feeding is the most sensitive subject for me, and I don't see that ever changing. I have become much better at talking about it, and I have finally accepted that I could not EBF. But I still blame myself, I don't know if that will ever change. For women with no major breast surgery in their past, breast feeding is still difficult and emotional, but the chance of having a low supply is slim. For women, like myself, who have had a major surgery on their breasts, the chances of having a low supply or other difficulties is much more common.

I so badly wish I had known what I know now before going through with my surgery. I was barely 18 years old, a size 00, and a large DD. I developed breasts FAR too young, and was already in an overflowing C cup by 7th grade. I was a dancer, and I remember it being incredibly difficult to find costumes that fit me without looking very inappropriate. Men stared at me when I was a child, which made me so uncomfortable and honestly scared in my own skin. I couldn't wear cute tops because my breasts were either too large or I was too concerned with them being noticeable. I think I was 16 the first time someone made comments to me about "having a great body for porn." It made me so sick, and so angry. I had back problems because my chest was too heavy for the rest of my very small frame. I hated boobs so much, and could not wait for the day I could cut them off. I would have preferred to be flat chested back then.

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